What am I going to do now...

I went to work this morning, showed up a little early so I could take a slightly longer lunch to meet with a possible daycare provider for my kids. Anyway so I get to work and I'm the first one there, other than my boss, which is odd because the other two girls that work in my office are always there before I am. I clock in, put my stuff down in my office and a minute later my boss calls me into his office and shuts the door behind him. Sitting in the corner of his office is another employee. He starts to say how this isn't a good day for him, blah blah blah, then goes on to say that they're making changes within the company, something about cut backs and unfortunately they're going to have to let me go. I seriously couldn't believe it, all I keep thinking is what am I going to do now, what am I going to do. I stayed strong while I was in his office, signed for my last check then got up and walked away. Once I turned the corner the tears just started flowing.

For the first time in 11 years I don't have a job. I have two kids to support and no job to support them with. What am I gong to do now? While I haven't answered this question completely yet the answer I have now is I'm going to pick myself off the floor, not feel sorry for myself and I'm going to get on with life. Things happen for a reason and I'm looking at this with a light at the end of the tunnel. I can now be with my kids during the day, or at least for now. I'm going to look for some kind of job in the evenings so I can continue to be with my kids during the day, they're the most important things in my life and I wouldn't have this opportunity to be with them had this not happened. Change isn't the easiest thing for me and I probably would have never looked for another job, even though I wasn't completely happy at work and found the job that I was doing to be rather boring. Maybe I'll even use this time to get some kind of schooling and actually start a career rather than just having a job.

While this wasn't the best way to start the new year I still believe that this is going to be a better year than 2008 was. Lets hope and pray that everything turns out for the better.

Yikes!

I have to put my kids in daycare... now for those of you not familiar with daycare, that's the place you drop off your kids while you're at work and in turn you give them every dime you earn while you're not with your kids. For the past couple of months a friend of ours has been watching Kathryn and Jared but she just informed me that she won't be able to do it anymore, so the search begins. So far I've found a couple of places that aren't too horribly overpriced, and by that I mean $200 a week for both of them. Now figure that I have to pay that no matter what, and there are 52 weeks in a year. Let me do the math for you... that's $10,400 a year!!! Isn't that insane! I guess it's a small price to pay to have children and be a working mother. I just can't believe that we're going to be paying $800 a month, that's a Porshe payment! LOL Oh well, what am I going to do, I have to pay it because I have to work. I can only hope and pray that whomever I hire to watch my kids will treat them with tenderloving care, afterall they are my greatest blessings.

Babies, Babies, Babies

Just a couple pictures of Kathryn with her cousins, aka best buds.

Note to self

Do not let your 4 year old son hold your infant daughter while he's chewing gum.

Christmas Morning

When I was a kid I remember waking up as soon as the sun hit my window wondering if Santa had come. What do you my kids do... they sleep! We woke Jared up with an excited "Jared, Santa came, Santa came!!!" and the baby, well we just let her get her beauty sleep. Jared came rushing out of his room and was so excited to see his wheelbarrow all put together. It was definately a fun Christmas morning. Jared seemed pretty excited with everything that Santa brought him, he must have been very good this year. Kathryn, once she woke up, got to open her presents as well. It won't be long until she can actually play with them.

Christmas begins

We started our Christmas gatherings this weekend. First with my mom, her husband and all my "brothers and sisters". Then with my nana, aunts, uncles, cousins and the whole nine yards. It was a very pleasant weekend and I'd like to thank everyone again for the lovely gifts.

This is of course Kathryn's first Christmas and the first Christmas of many as a family of 4. Our family is complete and I'm really looking forward to all the holidays to come.

Check back soon because this is my new goal, to start and keep up with my blog. Lets see how I do.